Feel some more

When I came to take down the Christmas decorations last week I was aware of a feeling of what I always labelled 'anti-climax'.  It was part of my pattern, I now recognise, of clinging to the pleasant events in life and not wanting them to end in fear of what may replace them.  A pattern which caused my own suffering by wanting life to be different in some way.  On recognising this old feeling, I remembered reading how the nervous system responds to triggers from our pasts - it has a memory.  Knowing that these feelings and the thoughts that accompanied them were just activities of the body/mind - not who I am - to feel arise and then let fall in their own time, brought a wave of peace and calm allowing me to continue the task in presence.  The experience inspired this poem:

Feel some more
 
Feel, connect, feel some more
Gratitude grounds us to the core
Aware of the nervous system’s memory clinging
In this knowledge comes freedom, the heart is singing
This kindness to allow all to arise
To be truly felt with no disguise
Aware of sensations before they fall
Yes, this is the kindest kindness of all
Letting life be, without the push and pull
Pleasant the master, unpleasantness to cull
Aware of life’s nature, life is King
Be at one with this nature, release the suffering
Aware of all on offer, beyond must-haves and wants
Experience inner wisdom, the heart’s response
 
Feel, connect, feel some more
Be this wonder, creative to our core